end of year, nearing

気づけばもう１１月もおしまい
２０１９年の１１月は忘れられないひと月になりそうです
ターニングポイント
これからの人生どう動いていくのか　
私の最後の勝負の時期かもしれない
自分に正直に、駆け引きなく、心の赴くままに

I realize today is the last day of November
Only one more month in 2019
Feels like already a wrap up but I still have lots of things
to get done within this year

November 2019 will be a memorable month for me
in my entire life
I am pretty sure I will look back later in life and remember
about this month which is a major turning point in my life

Whatever decision I make, path I take, it is all good
I will live my life as my heart desires

Cheers

Team

ムードメーカーのＳが長野移住で退社してしまうため、先々週会社のみんなでご飯にいった。それぞれ個性豊かで味のある職場で、入社６か月もあっという間だった。

一昨年夏から細々と手伝ってきて法人登記などもしたソーシャルメディアの会社をとうとう休眠させる（というか社長の判断で、日本の会計士さんに橋渡しした）。
先月末決算で、休眠はそこから数か月内に申請するらしい。

うーん、なかなか感慨深い…

今の職場はやっと見つけた自分がのびのびと本領発揮できる職場なので、どうにか存続していって成功して欲しいなと切に思うし、そのために私ができることは貢献しようと思う。

今ちょっとプロジェクトが全部止まって静かな時期。

社長2人はそれぞれ別々の案件で国外に出ていて、海外営業がんばっている様子。

私より10以上年下なのに2人ともネットワークの広さも、才能もはんぱない。

尊敬！

未経験の業種で、25の優秀新卒2年目女子にいろいろ助けてもらいながら業界勉強中です！

This is my team.
I very much enjoy working with everyone in my current workplace.
Everyone is unique and talented in his or her own way and the chemistry is great.
It is too bad that one of my colleague is leaving us for her new life venture but I wish her all the best of luck in the dream she will pursue in Nagano.

I am already looking for next surfing opportunity.
The colleague who's leaving and I are thinking about going on a weekday within this month (shhh) and I've asked my Japan surf-mentor which dates he is going.
I am thinking about buying a new board (finally...) off his surf-mentor who's a shaper. I need to get the pricing from him to see when I can order.
Toru offered to pay it out of the family pool, but since this is my decision, I want to see when I can make the budget for myself from my own income so I do not have to touch the family money.

I feel my life is shifting into the next phase of life and that it will be better and funner in every way!

Good night.

Wipeout!

Relax....checked out

ひさびさのローカルポイントに師匠に連れて行ってもらって（多分１０年ぶりくらい？！）サーフィンした。水曜日。
というよりバタバタもがいてきたｗ
台風のうねりが沖から入ってきた後半戦は体力ないし、波強いしで、２回くらい死ぬかと思った、ひさびさにワイプアウト！

それでも３本くらいは乗れたのかな、この上ないくらい天気が良く、人々のvibeもよく、いつぶりかに心の底から楽しかった！
ストレスフリー、restraintフリー
こんな日々をたまに織り交ぜて生きていきたいものです

Much appreciation goes out to Mr. S, my surf mentor in Japan, for making this possible! All the respect for him and his buddies aka great surfers.

そんなんで湘南の風を乗せたまま夜は六本木ヒルズで会社のお別れ会。
わきあいあいながら、まだなーんとなく遠慮がある間合いでディナーが進む中、中盤で

私アナウンスがあるのだけど
やりたい仕事がありまーす

と宣言。社長に実務でトライしていく承諾をもらい、辞めちゃうSに「どうやって経験積んだ？」て聞いて、満足して疲れた体と眠い目を抱えてみんなより先に帰宅。即入眠。

忙しいけど充実した１日だった。

なんか、動き出してるわ、私の人生、あらゆるアスペクトから。
感覚でわかる。
ここから何がどうなっていくのか、痛みも伴うのかもしれないけれど、自分を幸せにするのは自分だけ、をモットーに、これからも自分で自分の人生を切り開いてきたいと思います！

よい週末を。

My friend and a surf mentor, Noboru picked me up to a local, local spot in Shonan to surf. His buddie also came along.
I was the only novice and everyone else in the spot were all experience surfers.
After all these years, I still struggle to paddle at the right timing to catch a mellow surf.
The vibe in the water was great and everyone was happy surfing.
Toward the end of the session, I was so worn out and a typhoon swell coming in from the east, I got wiped out a few times.
I thought I was going to drawn for a moment, but oh that feeling!
I used to get wipeout so often when I was surfing in California, a reminiscent feeling came back to me after all these years.

I pushed myself anyhow to the shore and took a nap while everyone else kept surfing without any break!

Oh I dream to be a surfer like them, who feels comfortable enough to get in the water alone, find friends there, surf with ease, be happy, come home.

First I need to buy a long board!

On the same day, I had a farewell dinner for someone leaving the company at end of this month. It was for me the first get together with my bosses and colleagues.
The atmosphere was anyhow still a bit stiff with many new comers (incl. me) but again the vibe was good.
I could feel everyone is on the same table in many ways.

I made a small announcement to one of my bosses that I want to pursue a career of moderator which he agreed to led me pursue on the job.

Oh what a week. Feels so good to see things are coming together finally.

I feel my life is changing and I am ready for changes.
I can only make myself happy, noone else.

Have a great weekend!